that threw me off...

so on my lunch break, i went to my park. i saw a homless dude i m friends with sleeping on a bench. it looked like a good idea, and i felt like 'why do they get to do that' ?? so after lunch i took a nap too. it was nice. and also.. there was another homless guy, he took a cup with a straw out of the garbage, i was like 'hmm, ok" then he went to the water fountain filled it up, i was like.. hm ok.. then he took out HIS lunch.. it was in a nice lunch bag... what threw me off was he then reached into his bag of things and pulled out a metal fork, i dont know why but i was like.. hmm.. ok. and also, i was thinking.. man these guys are lucky. they get to just take a nap in the park, no work, ask for money, get that money, free food.. but then the part about not having a home crept in, and then i was like hhmmm i m not sure if they are lucky, still unclear...